Saturday, May 23, 2015

I am not a rock

it's not hard to see
what's important
about a rock.

rocks have been around forever.
they're solid.

I am full of holes,
leaking when you leave me.

I've tried to change but
a rock can only skip
so long
before it sinks.

there are laws we can't change.

Monday, March 30, 2015


I fold into myself like
an obnoxious birthday card
with glitter hidden inside.
Sparkles are great and all but
why can't they warn you?
It gets everywhere.

Things might be different
if I had ever loved anyone
who was not insane.

If I am insane
it is because I never believed the warnings.
Who am I to reject someone
based on what we think we see
on the outside?
Confetti hides. 

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Monday, January 19, 2015


If everyone spoke the same language
think of what could be gained, you said.
I do not see your face
because I'm looking at my hands
and we are not sitting next to each other
even in the same room.

Why this sacrifice
we don't use the same language
even though we both speak English. 
I think you shrugged.
That's just a metaphor.

When I felt words
were all I had
I buried my writing
in the backyard.
Mother dug them up
when planting petunias.
Why, she asked.
It's a metaphor, I said. 

Saturday, December 6, 2014

oh the weeping I was allowed

I hold my breath. My friend told me
when I was twelve
and we were in the art room.

I don't remember what
we were making but
I was making it
like I was listening
for silence
to speak.

Why are you grunting, she said,
or something like that.
It was months
before we figured it out.

Why choke someone
forever? Wait long enough,
they'll take over,
if they're anything like me.
But look here now:
how I still breathe.

Eric Garner didn't hold his breath.
Eric Garner doesn't hold his breath.
Eric Garner can't.

Teachers told me to never write a political poem.
This is not a political poem.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

soon we will move far away

that winter day we sat
in the back bedroom
with the windows open
and the snow outside
and talking about
your mother.

some thousand miles past
I see someone
with her haircut
and feel the anger
sharp in my lungs
like burning.

I catch myself,
because it is June
and you are not here
to remind me
the future is forward
not back.

I've left before
but never this far.

that day we talked so deep
I remember
we forgot
we'd put on tea.
with the water gone
and the coils hot
the kettle stuck.

we took it hard.
we couldn't force it off.
we pulled but
it wouldn't

it almost felt
like giving up
to forgive

but later,
in the kitchen,
you lifted
the teapot
without trying.

this was just the beginning.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

nothing is subtracted

I have carried the loss
because where else
could I put it?

is that someplace
like heaven
that cannot
be mapped?

I am not a dolphin
carrying a mummified
baby body
what do I have
to let go

must losing
make us less

or can loss be
like the sea
turn rock
to beach?